Another update that no one asked for

I'm suddenly feeling this urge to post about what I'm up to so yeah-
New year is going okay so far. No major tragedy. School is okay I guess. Still have a B in math though. I'm afraid I cant pull it to an A before finals. AAH, FINALS!!! I'm mainly worrying about math because if I do even a little bad on the exam I won't be able to get the perfect GPA this semester :'(( chemistry too. For our ELA class we're reading David & Goliath, I'm personally reading Outliers;  both wriiten by Malcolm Gladwell. I have multiple animes to finish but I don't think I should try to finish them because I know once I start i wont be able to stop. Anywho, need to finish Yowamushi Pedal (that Hime Hime song is stuck in my head), Days TV (almost done), Eyeshield   21, fruit basket (properly finish it), rewatch Free!!!, Chihayafuru (only watched like 3 episodes man:(), prince of strides (same), Sherlock (all the seasons ughh), rewatch Harry Potter movies and yeah that's all I have in mind right now.  Also, I joined the track team and it's not a very great experience yet but I'm confident  it'll get better. Okay baii fellow non existant fans of mine hahhaha *starts sobbing hysterically* 

BEST OF REVERSE HAREM ANIME

If you’re reading this I hope you already know what reverse harem means. If not, then let me educate you in simple words- harem is the genre of anime where there’s typically one male protagonist surrounded by multiple female characters. Reverse Harem is the opposite; one girl, many boys. Here’s a list of reverse harem animes I enjoyed:

#1  Yamato nadeshiko Shichi Henge or The Wallflower

(LOVE THIS ANIME!!! Great storyline, beautiful characters, humor and animation- my fav)

Learn more about this anime-

https://myanimelist.net/anime/1562/Yamato_Nadeshiko_Shichihenge%E2%99%A5

#2 Ouran koukou host club or Ouran highschool host club

(handsome gorgeous characters, good plot, funny af)

Learn more about this anime-

https://myanimelist.net/anime/853/Ouran_Koukou_Host_Club

#3 Watashi ga motete dousunda or Kiss him, not me

(RELATABLE AF, hilarious, beautiful characters, unique storyline)

Learn more about this anime-

https://myanimelist.net/anime/32899/Watashi_ga_Motete_Dousunda

#4 Fruit Basket

(Good story, well developed characters, funny, cute)

Learn more about this anime-

https://myanimelist.net/anime/120/Fruits_Basket

#5 Uta no prince sama (all three seasons)

(Beautiful hot characters, good plot, good music, nice drama)

Learn more about this anime-

https://myanimelist.net/anime/10321/Uta_no%E2%98%86Prince-sama%E2%99%AA_Maji_Love_1000

#6 Brothers conflict

(so here’s the thing, I’m honestly ashamed of myself for liking this anime. It’s got some incest crap (not intense but still) which is why a negative point from me. But despite that, it has BEAUTIFUL GORGEOUS CHARACTERS, good plot, funny too)

Learn more about this anime-

https://myanimelist.net/anime/15605/Brothers_Conflict

Here’re some more animes of this genre that’s been recommended to me. I haven’t watched them but they’re extremely popular among others so I guess you guys can check ‘em out too:

Amnesia

Diabolik Lovers

Kamisama hajimemashita or kamisama kiss

Vampire Knight

How to stop being a fangirl

First of all, I want to say that being a fangirl is NOT a bad thing!! You don't have to stop being a fangirl unless you're in a dark hole like me and have no choice but to abandon the fangirl world. But before I start, I must say that ONE DOES NOT SIMPLY STOP FANGIRLING. However, you can restrict your fangirl craze by following these steps-
P.S. this is more of a reminder for myself than anything else pls don't take offense in it.

#1 if you have any fanpage, DELETE IT NOW!!! i know how difficult it is as i myself had over 5 fanpages but trust me this is the major step and life without your fanpage isn't as painful as you think.
   *make an aesthetic blog/ quotes/ memes/social justice blog if you want to keep yourself occupied*

#2 if you write fanfics, STOP!! try to delete the fanfics that you have posted because you will continue to get notifications from those and will stay attached to it. If deleting is too hard for you, you can keep them and disable your notification, this way people can still read it but it won't disrupt your personal life.

#3 if you draw fanart, STOP!! try to draw about something else. Draw Barack Obama. Draw Bill Nye the sciene guy. Draw about WWII. Draw about 3017 when robot marriage is legal and mars is overpopulated. Draw a banana.
*hide the fanarts you've already drawn*

#4 If you're a fujoshi/fundanshi first stop watching yaoi or anything that relates to it. It's hard but the first step is to stop watching. 

Then stop reading BL fanfics.
Stop posting about BL or your OTP.
Do NOT look onto the tags when you're on tumblr or instagram.
Avoid watching fanedits.
If you're following someone who posts about those, unfollow them.
Try something new. Watch different types of anime/ show.
Find something new. Play video games (not mystic messenger) or
read books (not the ones that makes you fangirl), play sport, master drawing
finally, take it slow. take it day by day, minute by minute. SKAM fans see what i did there                        (☞ﾟ∀ﾟ)☞

#5 Even if you're not a fujoshi but just a regular fangirl/fanboy who wants to lessen their obsession, you can take the steps mentioned above^^ and i promise it will work. Good luck to anybody trying to change themselves and hopefully you will be able to live a healthy life. (◕‿◕✿)

Just an update

Pretty sure it's been over a year since i have posted on this blog. Going back to the old posts, i only get massive cringe attacks. lol was it really me who wrote those? It makes me so uncomfortable to read my own old posts. you may question why haven't i deleted those then? well, MEMORIES duhh

anyway, this is my junior year; stressful and my extreme habit of procrastination is making it worse. I have tests tomorrow, homeworks that i haven't finished. But yet, i spent 4 hours 32 min watching cockroaches give birth while dying, people eating smoothies made of disgusting things and cheap halloween costume ideas (i dont even celebrate halloween??). Don't ask me why, i cant answer that okay. It's 10:13 pm and i have exactly one hour to finish ALL MY HOMEWORKS and then take a shower and eat and then go to bed. Not sure how I'm going to manage that, but.. i will try, lol, hOPEFULLY, IF I DON'T GET DISTRACTED BY SOMETHING AGAIN. hahaha

why am i like this ughh ok baii have a nice day/night
(is anyone even reading this? are any of my followers still active?)

Mr. Watson, His Family & The Mystery Man

Mr.Watson, owner of WIGI multi-national company, is in bed for the past three years. He's suffering from an unknown disease. He doesn't talk, move or anything. No doctor or medicine could cure him. Left out by his family, now he lives with his youngest daughter Fiona, in a lake cottage, alone.

Fiona, the youngest member of Watson family is just a regular nerdy girl. A beautiful nerd. Books, coffee, her bedroom and her father- these are the things that kept her surviving. She doesn't bother to care  about the reality, because she knows, it would only shows cruelty.

One day she brings a Mysterious guy home who has lost his memory. He, shockingly, claims to cure Mr. watson. Mr. Watson, over joyed, decided to donate all his property to the mystery man. This news brings every one together. His wife, daughters, son in a battle of love, battle of money, with the mystery man.



COMING SOON.... 

COURAGE - Chapter 2 ~ Part 1

Everyone's still stunned, staring at Ryan with their eyes wide open. Nobody expected a disruption in their great bully sort of activity. Melinda broke the sudden silence -
"Oh, hi Ryan . . . How are you?"
"I'm well, thanks," said Ryan, in a sharp voice.
Then he turns to me and asks impatiently,
"Leena, the bell has rang 5 minutes ago, why are you still here?"
Emily eyed me threateningly.
What should I say? That, they were harassing me?
Nope. I'm not going to tell Ryan anything. It will cause more trouble for me. So better keep quite and let them solve it.

"We were having a little chit-chat," Emily answers instead of me.
"Cool but I don't think this is an appropiate time for anyone to have friendly conversation in the hallway." His voice and face shows the true disapproval.
"C'mon Ryan, this is only 5 minutes."
"Maybe being tardy doesn't matter to you, but for Leena, it is important not to lose point."
He takes my hand and pulls me out of the crowd.
"Come, I'll walk you to the office."
 I try to avoid looking at the girls' angry faces as we walk away. When we get near to the office Ryan stops.
And starts laughing! (I expected him to be mad and scold me. )

"That was really heroic. Wasn't it?" Ryan smiles widely.
"U-huh?" (I'm confused)
"I mean, going there and 'rescuing' you from those 'beasts'" he grinned while mentioning the words 'Rescue' and 'Beast'.
"By the way, how long are you gonna tolerate this? I'll graduate this year then you'll have to face those bullies by yourself. Better protest from now."
"You know I won't," I say in a cold voice.
"But. . . Why?"

Leaving him behind, I enter the the office. I don't want to talk to him about it. I don't want to discuss my problems, my thoughts with anybody. Because, I know, nobody will understand. Its not like I dont have the courage  or I'm afriad. I can protest too. I can speak up against many unfairs. But I won't. I know this doesn't do any good . If you have power , no matter how bad job you do, how many mistakes you make, you will still get many supporter. But the same you will be criticized, humiliated for your mistakes; your great jobs won't be cared if you don't have power. This isn't the rule, but this is reality...

(To be continued )

COURAGE - Chapter 1 ~ Part 3

I turn around to see what halted me back. It was Emiley, the leader of " Chill Chiks" group. She was holding my hand. She pressed my hand so hard that her long manicured nails dug into my skin. She is one of the most evil and horrendous person I've ever seen. She's like those typical "Mean girls" every school has. ( She's a great bully too '_' ). She doesn't follow school's dress code, she doesn't require a pass if she's tardy and the main irritating point is, she doesn't even get good grades but still everyone in the school are obsessed with her. (More  clearly to say - worship her! ).

I am pulled in the middle and all the girls around me made a circle. Some girls standing with their hand crossed, some girls grinning at me. There are also some girls standing a little bit far away, enjoying the drama has started. Finally, after all those formalities, Emiley spoke up,
"Leena hun, why do you always try to run away from us? We're friends"
she said in a criticizing voice. (Still holding my hands)
My mouth is sealed with an invisible power. I can't get my mouth open to talk. I don't even want to talk to them. Wait ( actually I do ), I want to protest when they bully me, when they bully others. I want to snitch on her to the principal, but I doubt this will do any good. Because even the principal is manipulated by them. I think I will get in more trouble instead of them. So it's better to keep quite than saying something back to them and creating a scene.

"Ugh! Emiley! This won't work out nicely. We gotta be tight."
a senior girl interrupted. Her pretty face turned evil with her envious squinted eyes. She pulled my backpack off my shoulder, taking everything out.
"Where is it? Where is it?
where is your damn phone?"
The more I'm viewing their activites the more I'm being confused.
What do they want? Why do they want my phone? Is this a new trap?
"This chick shows too much prestige, she needs to learn a lesson. "
"What exactly is your relationship with Ryan?"
All those questions, pressure in my mind - are just unbearable. My head's started spinning, vision blurring.

"Alright, alright, this is getting too noisy. We don't need that much bummer question. Let me handle this" said Emiley.
She walks towards me, I step back. I keep on walking backward while she's walking towards me. And now I found myself against the wall, nowhere else to go. Emiley leans closer.
"W-what are you doing?"
I stammered the question; she didn't answer. She keeps on leaning close. I close my eyes. She's horribly close now.
She takes my hand, place it against the wall, tilt my head up.
"Lee -
and before she could even finish her word, I heard someone else calling my name.
"Leena!"
I can reconize this voice without a second of thought.
Emiley let go off my hand. All the girls were shocked. I sneak a glance to the hallway,
Ryan's emerged from the classroom,
"Leena! What do you think you're doing down there?"

( To be continued )