Well, I guess the title already explains what I'm going to say today. If you've looked at my other posts on this blog, you'll realize that I'm a huge fangirl, of a lot of things which includes Kpop, Kdrama, and just South Korean Entertainment industry in general.
I was introduced to it in 2010. When I was in 5th grade, one of my friends told me about Kdramas that her cousins brought from Saudi Arabia. I watched a bit of Boys Over Flowers and really loved it. Due to my country's slow and expensive internet during that time, I couldn't feed my Kdrama desires. However, after moving to the United States, I was absorbed in a world of Kdramas which eventually led me to Kpop. I knew BTS, EXO, BIGBANG, SHINee for a long time but I always avoided them because I knew Kpop is addictive and I was already a fan of so many other things. I didn't have time for Kpop.
During my Sophomore year in High School, I met one of my best friends who was a hardcore ARMY and VIP and because of her, I checked out many BTS and BIGBANG songs despite not being a music person. My Junior year of High School was when I got into Kpop through Twice's TT dance practice video that was playing in our school's Korean culture club meeting. Anyway, long story short, I became addicted to Twice and then later Got7, and my chances of stop being a trash were gone.
Being a hardcore fangirl is the only way I know, to be truthful. I was never a moderate fan of anything. There were days and weeks and months when I thought of nothing but GOT7 and TWICE. I had no reason to live one day after another besides these two groups. In a way, I'm grateful because they made me laugh and comforted me during some of my worst times in life. However, as time passed by, I realized how heavily I was dependent on them. They took over almost every part of my life and I slowly realized how negatively it was affecting my life. Well, it's not particularly their fault tbh. So many people love Kpop and still lead a healthy lifestyle. I guess I'm just not one of them. After striving for so many years, I realized, I just can't be one of them.
I'm still going through a rough time in life and Kpop would have really helped me. It was helping me, a lot. However, lately, I often find myself watching Got7 videos not because I necessarily want to but because I have nothing else to distract myself with. As much as I love them, I find myself getting tired of their songs except for a few non-title tracks. Twice too, I love their new MVs and they still lift up my mood but it's only temporary. I find myself overwhelmed and exhausted way too soon.
I'm still deeply in love with Park Jinyoung and Yoo Jeongyeon. I'd still watch any show Jinyoung has a part in because I live for actor Jinyoung. I'd love to listen if Jeongyeon releases solos but other than that, I just...can't. I don't want to fake it. I don't want to force myself to watch their videos or listen to their songs. I knew I'd grow out of Kpop soon, but I didn't realize it'd be now. Throughout my life, I've been into many, many fandoms and grew out of them and Kpop was nothing different, it's just that I can't let go atm.
I'm still probably going to waste hours on Youtube, AO3, and fansites but it's only because I have nothing else to keep my mind occupied with.
sorry, this got a little too personal but I needed to get this off of my chest. Adios mis amigos invisibles, until next time :)
I was introduced to it in 2010. When I was in 5th grade, one of my friends told me about Kdramas that her cousins brought from Saudi Arabia. I watched a bit of Boys Over Flowers and really loved it. Due to my country's slow and expensive internet during that time, I couldn't feed my Kdrama desires. However, after moving to the United States, I was absorbed in a world of Kdramas which eventually led me to Kpop. I knew BTS, EXO, BIGBANG, SHINee for a long time but I always avoided them because I knew Kpop is addictive and I was already a fan of so many other things. I didn't have time for Kpop.
During my Sophomore year in High School, I met one of my best friends who was a hardcore ARMY and VIP and because of her, I checked out many BTS and BIGBANG songs despite not being a music person. My Junior year of High School was when I got into Kpop through Twice's TT dance practice video that was playing in our school's Korean culture club meeting. Anyway, long story short, I became addicted to Twice and then later Got7, and my chances of stop being a trash were gone.
Being a hardcore fangirl is the only way I know, to be truthful. I was never a moderate fan of anything. There were days and weeks and months when I thought of nothing but GOT7 and TWICE. I had no reason to live one day after another besides these two groups. In a way, I'm grateful because they made me laugh and comforted me during some of my worst times in life. However, as time passed by, I realized how heavily I was dependent on them. They took over almost every part of my life and I slowly realized how negatively it was affecting my life. Well, it's not particularly their fault tbh. So many people love Kpop and still lead a healthy lifestyle. I guess I'm just not one of them. After striving for so many years, I realized, I just can't be one of them.
I'm still going through a rough time in life and Kpop would have really helped me. It was helping me, a lot. However, lately, I often find myself watching Got7 videos not because I necessarily want to but because I have nothing else to distract myself with. As much as I love them, I find myself getting tired of their songs except for a few non-title tracks. Twice too, I love their new MVs and they still lift up my mood but it's only temporary. I find myself overwhelmed and exhausted way too soon.
I'm still deeply in love with Park Jinyoung and Yoo Jeongyeon. I'd still watch any show Jinyoung has a part in because I live for actor Jinyoung. I'd love to listen if Jeongyeon releases solos but other than that, I just...can't. I don't want to fake it. I don't want to force myself to watch their videos or listen to their songs. I knew I'd grow out of Kpop soon, but I didn't realize it'd be now. Throughout my life, I've been into many, many fandoms and grew out of them and Kpop was nothing different, it's just that I can't let go atm.
I'm still probably going to waste hours on Youtube, AO3, and fansites but it's only because I have nothing else to keep my mind occupied with.
sorry, this got a little too personal but I needed to get this off of my chest. Adios mis amigos invisibles, until next time :)
